Posted by Anonymous on 2017/11/26 under Life im tired of not being able to be myself. not being able to speak my mind. its all my fault really. when i was myself, i tried to change that. i convinced myself that i needed to shut that part of me down. now, 11 months later, i regret that. shutting that part of me down has ruined my life more than i could have ever imagined. im depressed now. i have anxiety now because that part of me that didnt care what people thought is gone along with the rest of my search for adventure and inner wildness. And you know whats the worst part of this, i cant go back. ive tried and tried. always saying 'tomorrow is your new start. Fresh once again' But my ambition, determination everything is gone after losing myself. and its my own fault. i told myself to change because no one loved me. but the first step of loving is to love yourelf.